What the hell is wrong with me

Eyyy lmao I haven't posted for a while, but here I am B-). The main thing I'm gonna talk about today is the fact that I want to start illustrating and writing a web comic and its gonna be a sports themed comic and i think I'll call it "Odd Man Rush"(it's about hockey). so basically the main premise of the comic is its about a kid named Martin, and Martin is the main character, white, blonde hair, scar on lip and near left temple on hairline, small widows peak, 5'8" strong built kinda muscular arms most people are afraid of him because of his intimidating appearance and he keeps to himself. I am basing Martins design and his personality on myself of course he will work better in stressful situations than me obviously and he will basically be a perfect version of myself. So Martin moves to a different country because of his parents having business there and in this country not many people play hockey and Martin basically tries to get a hockey team going...

Hey, it's me again and I'm a little annoyed right now. As none of the zero people that read this blog know, I'm a high school student in the second semester of the eleventh grade and I have no damn clue what I want to do with my life. I'm sure there are a tonne of others who feel the exact same way I do. I'm sure some people are even more lost than I am. There are currently 6 tabs open on my browser related to college. I have no real plan set out for after school really except the default that a lot of people have "I plan on going to college" I say although I don't know what college nor what program. For the passed year or so I thought I had a plan for the future of my schooling. I planned on going to school for computer programming, but I'm becoming less and less sure on wanting to do that. I recently started an introduction to computer programming class and I like it so far but I'm still so unsure. I'd probably say my number one dream is...