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Beneficium by Jacobiward

T his feeling, or rather the lack of feeling is frightening. It's nothing as its described. Instead of pain there is an unrelenting numbness and tingling feeling throughout my entire body although I know I don't have a body anymore. It's as if my body is trying to exist but simply doesn't. The best way I can describe it is like when you sleep on your arm and it goes numb and it doesn't feel like a part of you anymore and the feeling travels back into it slowly returning it back to normal as it was before, except in my case the feeling never fully returns just... numbness. I would welcome a little pain to be honest just something, anything. Although there's no pain this is the worst thing I've ever experienced. It's so dark its indescribable I was sitting in my office chair that I had bought for three bucks from a thrift shop in my room. I haven't left this room for almost three and a half weeks, that's a new record. Every once in a while my
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The "Uptrend Challenge"

Eyyy lmao whats up guys it's me again and today I'm gonna be talking about a Challenge I plan on doing. Now, this challenge is going to take an entire year to accomplish. As nobody who reads this knows I have a fairly good sized vid.me channel (which can be found at https://vid.me/jacobi_ultrasoda  ) and exactly as I am with my blog I'm quite lazy and I don't make as much content as I should be and could be making. It's not that I don't enjoy making content because I love making it and just like nobody else I would absolutely love to make a living out of it and that is my main goal, to make enough money to where I can be satisfied with my needs. I'm obviously not saying that this is for the money because its not I've been making videos and writing blogs for free since I started making them and i will continue to do so regardless. However >:) this challenge is one that I came up with and the challenge goes like this, there is a website called Uptrend

"Odd Man Rush"

Eyyy lmao I haven't posted for a while, but here I am B-). The main thing I'm gonna talk about today is the fact that I want to start illustrating and writing a web comic and its gonna be a sports themed comic and i think I'll call it "Odd Man Rush"(it's about hockey). so basically the main premise of the comic is its about a kid named Martin, and Martin is the main character, white, blonde hair, scar on lip and near left temple on hairline, small widows peak, 5'8" strong built kinda muscular arms most people are afraid of him because of his intimidating appearance and he keeps to himself. I am basing Martins design and his personality on myself of course he will work better in stressful situations than me obviously and he will basically be a perfect version of myself. So Martin moves to a different country because of his parents having business there and in this country not many people play hockey and Martin basically tries to get a hockey team going

Why the hell is choosing a career so damn difficult!

Hey, it's me again and I'm a little annoyed right now. As none of the zero people that read this blog know, I'm a high school student in the second semester of the eleventh grade and I have no damn clue what I want to do with my life. I'm sure there are a tonne of others who feel the exact same way I do. I'm sure some people are even more lost than I am. There are currently 6 tabs open on my browser related to college. I have no real plan set out for after school really except the default that a lot of people have "I plan on going to college" I say although I don't know what college nor what program. For the passed year or so I thought I had a plan for the future of my schooling. I planned on going to school for computer programming, but I'm becoming less and less sure on wanting to do that. I recently started an introduction to computer programming class and I like it so far but I'm still so unsure. I'd probably say my number one dream is